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i.
"So where are you from?" The boy leans toward me, questions swimming in his eyes. I smile.

"Oh, I'm from Boston."

"No, I mean, where are you from?" My smile falters as I realize where this is going. It's an all-too familiar conversation, one I've been having since I was old enough to reply.

"Do you mean where was I born?"

"Yeah."

"I was born in China."

"Do you speak Chinese?"

"No."

"Does your family speak Chinese?"

"No."

He looks befuddled. I sigh.

"I'm adopted."

"Oh!" I see the light bulb over his head go off in a shower of sparks. "Do you know who your real parents are? Like, your real parents?" My temper flares. I stifle the urge to throw something.

"You mean my biological parents?"

"Yeah."

"No."

"Oh." There's an awkward pause. I have learned to wait it out, to prepare my next automated response.

"When were you adopted?"

"When I was a year old."

"Did you live in an orphanage?"

"Yes."

"Like in Annie?"
Rolling my eyes seems appropriate.

"No, not like in Annie."

"Oh."

ii.
A woman hobbles past me, a plastic trash bag of aluminum soda cans slung over her back. She looks ancient, but probably isn't older than mid-fifties. She's wearing a thin floral blouse, buttons slightly skewed; pastel pants at an unfashionable cut and length; a white bucket hat with an elastic snapped snugly under her chin; her bangs cut bluntly across her forehead. Is this how people think I'll look in thirty years?

iii.
"You know," my dad says, casually forking his chicken at dinner, "if you were biologically related to me, you and your brother wouldn't be half as smart, and half as good looking." I laugh, but secretly wish my dad would give himself more credit.

iv.
My brother puts on his best Asian accent – "Fri' ri' one dollah" – and asks if I can do it too. I say I can't, when what I really mean is I won't.

v.
"You're really different," he says to me. I'm doodling in the margins of my homework and glance up, surprised and flattered.

"Am I?"

"Yeah. You're not like the other Asian kids I know."

"Oh." This again.
It's something in my speech: the cadence, the lack of an accent. Something in the way I walk with my heels, the way I move my hands like the conductor of some mad orchestra, something no one can ever quite put their finger on.
But it's enough to make me "really different".

vi.
My friends like to tease me by calling me things like "Banana," "Twinkie," and "Whasian," things that mean "yellow on the outside, white on the inside." It's easier to laugh and accept it than to explain why I don't meet their eyes when I do.

vii.
"You look beautiful today," my dad tells me, looking up from his book as I'm about to head out the door. I strike a melodramatic pose.

"It's in my genes," I joke.
I'd really appreciate your thoughts. (:

And a title. :XD:
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Given 2012-11-19
Automatic by *IndigoSkyes
Deviant also suggested by *xlntwtch ( Suggested by WyvernLetDie and Featured by neurotype )
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I just gotta get this out right now, you are so very beautiful for writing this piece, Indigo, and I really mean that with all my heartstrings.

The way you write- your tone, and the honesty and emotions I felt while reading through this piece of non-fiction made me well up- I don't exactly know why though. Maybe it's because I know what it feels like to be bullied or teased, more so maybe it's because I know what it feels like when everybody and sometimes even myself conclude that I am different and will always be different.

Please never stop doing what you do. What you have- your own blend of special- is far too beautiful to ever let go of:heart:
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Morning-Star-42 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Aww, I love the last part. Very honest and clear writing, thank you for sharing!
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for your kind comment!
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stealthyninja21 Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Student General Artist
Beautiful :)
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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TempestJones Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012
oh wow. I really like it.
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:iconindigoskyes:
IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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TempestJones Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012
of course :)
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Dicegirl14395 Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
oh gosh thats so me! the moment someone sees me they switch to english (in seychelles most kids speak creole, even though english is taught at all schools) and speak soo slow witch hand gestures! even though i was born and raised in the seychelles.. then inevitably i get asked the question.. 'are you indian?' no.. 'sri lankan' no.. 'then what are you?' and i have to explain im seychelloise but both my parents are maldivian but had to move here cause my dad got exiled due to his dad being the president (a LONG story) but my great grandparents are originally Portuguese, but i was born and raised in Seychelles and went to government school therefore am perfectly capable of speaking creole.. then i get the OTHER inevitable question.. 'oh.. so your grandfather was a president.. does that make you a princess?'

-__- no.. no it doesnt..

lol! sorry to ramble on! but anyway congrats on the DD!!! :heart: and stay unique!!! youre awesome as you are!!
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, thank you for sharing your story. That's so crazy.

Thank you very much!
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Taschasan Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
"Where are you from?" or "What [meant: nationality] are you?"
My answer "from Austria" or "Austrian" doesn't seem to satisfy people, since I have Persian roots (which seem to be obvious to them), I went over to just sayin': "From earth" and "Human. At least I hope so..."

All this stupid, nonsensical questions. They just get in my nerves.
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
"Human." :XD: That's fantastic.
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Taschasan Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I always hope that this is still the case with me. I mean, technically, we ALL could also be Aliens... XD
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:paranoid:
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TheNekoAmerican Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
this is so cool
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:iconindigoskyes:
IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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TheNekoAmerican Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome
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jessica35 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Beautiful.
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:iconindigoskyes:
IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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Aniphine Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Professional Writer
You just have a really beautiful way with words. They flow elegantly and paint such very clear and vibrant picture. I really admire your skills, well done. :D
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. :blush:
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EmptyBowlOfHope Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I hate when people make racial comments and think it is soo funny.. >.< And all the stereotypes.. -.- Some people really have growing up to do.

I felt a little crushed when I read this.. :c It's sad.
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:

Yeah, I guess the best course of action is just to try to educate people, or ignore the people who are simply dumb about things like this. :shrug:
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EmptyBowlOfHope Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Very well put. ^_^ I guess that's the best we can do about it.
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Goron-King-Darunia Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Aww... I find this a little sad, but a little bit nostalgic... and don't take that the wrong way. I say "nostalgic" in the sense that it makes me think of the days when I was young and "race" actually meant something and "racial diversity" was a thing. It's kind of hard not to miss the days when things were "simple" even if you know better now that it was wrong... Now that I've taken, Anthropology, I've discovered that there's no such thing as race, or culture. It's all made up in your head. And there's certainly no "biological" basis for race. You might have more similarity in your DNA with a white person or an black person, or an Arabic person than you do with even a close cousin! There's as much biological diversity between races as there is within races. Sure it can be "simpler" to put people in categories based on how they look, but "race" means more than that to most people. "Race" carries stereotypes and "cultural implications". And that's why this is kind of sad, because people think just because you look "Chinese" that you "are Chinese", that you speak it, that you celebrate Chinese new year, and follow Chinese customs, and that you're really smart and that you play piano, etc. etc. People fail to realize that your "race" and your "culture" is whatever you grow up in and whatever you decide. Just because I grew up in America doesn't mean I want to be called "American". There are so many stereotypes surrounding "White Americans" that people over look in favor of other "more serious racial stereotypes". But just because I'm a white American girl (and blonde) doesn't mean I fit the stereotype of: is ditsy, is dumb, can't spell, says OMG all the time, is addicted to her cell-phone, texts constantly, is all over Facebook, needs a boyfriend in order to feel loved, is Christian, wants to be an actress, etc. I think what we all really want is to be considered a person, plain and simple. No race, no nationality, no euphemism. Just a person. After that, we may want our individual culture recognized, but first and foremost, we are all people. Sure, it's hard for me to break stereotypes now that they've been embedded in me from early childhood, but it's examples like this story here that give me the strength to keep pushing myself to ignore those little voices in my head that want to divide people into "races" or "cultures". Because no one should have to be interrogated and teased as a child by other children just because they look a certain "race".
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You, my friend, are entirely correct. :highfive:
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passive32 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i like it...
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks. (:
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SaintOfTheDragons Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Welp, I haven't had large racial issues. Some girl once asked me how long I'd lived in the country.
"My whole life."
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:roll: People can be silly.
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SaintOfTheDragons Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Indeed.
And it's not that unheard of that a hispanic person would be born in this country, or any other person of any other race. Right?
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Right. :nod:
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SaintOfTheDragons Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:hug:
Sorry about that stuff.
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aquamarinetiger98 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
oh asians :XD:
this was beautiful written, you have done a phenomenal job!!! :huggle:
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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moonstonezeffiro Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student Writer
An amazing story, though it took me up until the last part to realize the narrator is a girl XD... It is a girl right? :U
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yes, I'm a girl. :XD:
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moonstonezeffiro Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Student Writer
Fgdjdihd okay sorry XD awkward :b...
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Haha, no worries. :lol:
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KaitForest Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012   Writer
jfksdfskfjs congratulations on the DD! <3
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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timeraider Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It is a tragic mode of operating, sizing someone up at a glance, or for any superficial reason. People miss out on so much. I could relate while reading these passages, and found the title quite apt. Congratulations on the DD, it was well deserved.
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Humans are humans though, you know? :shrug: I just do my best.

Thank you so much!
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Elucidator Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Good lord.
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
(: (I think?)
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whattupp Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
awesome i hope its a story
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks, and yes it is. (:
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whattupp Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012
your welcome and yippee!
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
iii and vii are beautiful.
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IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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kdhruv2 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student General Artist
Power to us asians eh?
I get it, I get it.
And I love the piece.
Mhm <3
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