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For as long as I can remember, people have asked me "why do you write?" At first, the answer seemed fairly obvious: "because I like to."
I wrote down everything; the smell of toast and the sound of water running and even things I'd never experienced before. I didn't discriminate. I knew that everything had the potential to be a story. I read. Like crazy. I read until my eyes fell out and my brain mushed. I didn't think about it, just let it come as it would. Most of the time, it didn't even make sense at all. And I was happy with it all, with my ink-smudged fingers and my notebooks swollen with poems.
But then life got that much more complicated and I wasn't so sure anymore. My poems became lengthier with less rhyme and more angst than was probably good for me. Everything was shattering apart and it was all slipping through my fingers like smoke. Gone were the fluffy little princess stories with pages of dialogue and purple prose, replaced by broken-hearted lovers and equally broken dreams. But people still asked me the same question and I still had to answer: "because it's the only time when I can be anything I want."
The world spun a couple more times and I cried and hurt and laughed a bit more before I figured out that it was okay if I wasn't able to figure things out. So I kept writing and that too made it okay. People suddenly started to read what I wrote, usually reserved only for my much-abused spiral bound notebook. They said it was beautiful, that I had talent, and then they asked me yet again, "why do you write?"
I know all the answers already. I write because words are carved into my soul, pounding, throbbing like divine dreams through my veins, and echoing in my head like unspoken prayers. They are my life. I say them, hear them, breathe them, eat them, dream them. I write because it makes me feel needed, this strange power I have to tell stories. The people I write about exist. They talk and argue and love with me and each other. They were my friends when I believed I had none. I write because when I hear something like "there are more stars in the universe than there are grains of sand on the Earth," it's impossible not to regurgitate that back onto paper in the form of a mismatched love story. I write to keep some semblance of sanity from tumbling out of my ears. I write for the same reason I breathe.
"So why do you write?" you prompt. I turn and look unflinchingly into your eyes. Breaking into a smile that's half teasing, half like I'm about to reveal my deepest secret, I say simply, "Why not?"
I wrote down everything; the smell of toast and the sound of water running and even things I'd never experienced before. I didn't discriminate. I knew that everything had the potential to be a story. I read. Like crazy. I read until my eyes fell out and my brain mushed. I didn't think about it, just let it come as it would. Most of the time, it didn't even make sense at all. And I was happy with it all, with my ink-smudged fingers and my notebooks swollen with poems.
But then life got that much more complicated and I wasn't so sure anymore. My poems became lengthier with less rhyme and more angst than was probably good for me. Everything was shattering apart and it was all slipping through my fingers like smoke. Gone were the fluffy little princess stories with pages of dialogue and purple prose, replaced by broken-hearted lovers and equally broken dreams. But people still asked me the same question and I still had to answer: "because it's the only time when I can be anything I want."
The world spun a couple more times and I cried and hurt and laughed a bit more before I figured out that it was okay if I wasn't able to figure things out. So I kept writing and that too made it okay. People suddenly started to read what I wrote, usually reserved only for my much-abused spiral bound notebook. They said it was beautiful, that I had talent, and then they asked me yet again, "why do you write?"
I know all the answers already. I write because words are carved into my soul, pounding, throbbing like divine dreams through my veins, and echoing in my head like unspoken prayers. They are my life. I say them, hear them, breathe them, eat them, dream them. I write because it makes me feel needed, this strange power I have to tell stories. The people I write about exist. They talk and argue and love with me and each other. They were my friends when I believed I had none. I write because when I hear something like "there are more stars in the universe than there are grains of sand on the Earth," it's impossible not to regurgitate that back onto paper in the form of a mismatched love story. I write to keep some semblance of sanity from tumbling out of my ears. I write for the same reason I breathe.
"So why do you write?" you prompt. I turn and look unflinchingly into your eyes. Breaking into a smile that's half teasing, half like I'm about to reveal my deepest secret, I say simply, "Why not?"
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cigarette smoke.
dear c,
this morning i woke up to the smell of cigarette smoke burning
the air and i thought of the nights we spent by the ocean,
sitting on the cool sand with our toes entwined. i thought of the
cigarettes dangling over our lips, the way we'd inhale as deep
as we could and every time the acrid fumes scorched our
throats and smoldered in our lungs, we'd laugh and smile
because when you're as young as we were
you can afford to die
life is cheap and love is the only thing with a price tag
love, j
dear c,
i was walking through the woods and i saw a little baby bird
fall out of a nest. its scream made my ribs seize up
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what do i want?
to sit on a curb
with you, not even caring
what we will do next.
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in case you forgot: don't read this. just trust me
in case you forgot:
i have the heart of a poet
trapped in the ribcage of
a tumultuous whore. i'm
a textbook charlatan with
too much nonsense & not
enough you
in case you forgot:
i have a fetish for third-person
pronouns & third-party interference.
you are the first, second, and third person
to invade all three of my parties with your
clothes still intact with your skin; with your
tongue still intact with your mouth-
an ampersand curled between your teeth
in case you forgot:
this stanza is a haiku.
god, i hate haikus.
in case you forgot:
i will drill your brain
with mindless repetition
until it is sore enough
t
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I love everything about this piece. Heck, the fifth paragraph is love. I can relate and agree with every part. Makes me want to write more.