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He's getting old.
And looking back on all of it now -
Escaping from school to hide in the woods, hunting with his father, his parents' divorce, his uncle's suicide, his sister's death, the war, the alcohol, the drugs, the women, the woman, the girl, the boy, the countless weight loss pills, the endless diets, the gym, the feet that always hurt, the feeling of wishing he could do more never going away.
In the mirror now -
Hazel eyes and white hair he stopped dyeing two years ago when his daughter told him not to. Crocs in various shades lined up like soldiers by the bed. Summer, the grill smoking like a house on fire, sun beading his forehead with irritation.
His entire universe -
Picking up his son from the school bus stop, the boy with loose, electric limbs and the brightest eyes; dimples, and mussed hair, and all those questions questions questions. He is going to a magnificent man someday.
The girl he loved before he even knew he could love someone like this. His hidden treasure, his princess, his sunshine. The only one who has the power in her hands to break his heart into a million tiny pieces.
The woman with whom he's spent nearly thirty years of his life. The woman who can do anything and everything, and he wishes he knew how to tell her that, how to say thank you.
He's getting old.
People are dying (have died) and sometimes he thinks about when we was the captain of his high school football team, when he loved a girl who wasn't his, the girl who drowned when she was on her lover's boat. He thinks of all the people he used to know, all the people who used to know him. All the cigarettes that filled his body like water, everything he's done that he wishes he could take back.
Sometimes he wishes he could live alone in the woods. Live wild and solitary, growing tall as the trees, alone as his cabin. Where his body never aches, never weighs him down. Where he never argues with his wife, yells at his son, sees his daughter cry. He could stay there forever, he thinks.
But he can't, because he needs them. He needs them to make him laugh and smile and hold and love. He doesn't know it, but they need him, too.
His son needs him to show him how to be a man. His daughter needs him to make things better. His wife needs him to make things right. And someday, he will. He needs to, because it's the only way he'll feel like it all matters.
It matters.
He's getting old, like a car that's gone too many miles and is just running low on fuel. Running on empty. Another twenty miles more, he thinks to himself. More pit stops, more landmarks, more breakdowns. He smiles wryly to himself. It's not the destination, it's the journey.
Another twenty miles more.
And looking back on all of it now -
Escaping from school to hide in the woods, hunting with his father, his parents' divorce, his uncle's suicide, his sister's death, the war, the alcohol, the drugs, the women, the woman, the girl, the boy, the countless weight loss pills, the endless diets, the gym, the feet that always hurt, the feeling of wishing he could do more never going away.
In the mirror now -
Hazel eyes and white hair he stopped dyeing two years ago when his daughter told him not to. Crocs in various shades lined up like soldiers by the bed. Summer, the grill smoking like a house on fire, sun beading his forehead with irritation.
His entire universe -
Picking up his son from the school bus stop, the boy with loose, electric limbs and the brightest eyes; dimples, and mussed hair, and all those questions questions questions. He is going to a magnificent man someday.
The girl he loved before he even knew he could love someone like this. His hidden treasure, his princess, his sunshine. The only one who has the power in her hands to break his heart into a million tiny pieces.
The woman with whom he's spent nearly thirty years of his life. The woman who can do anything and everything, and he wishes he knew how to tell her that, how to say thank you.
He's getting old.
People are dying (have died) and sometimes he thinks about when we was the captain of his high school football team, when he loved a girl who wasn't his, the girl who drowned when she was on her lover's boat. He thinks of all the people he used to know, all the people who used to know him. All the cigarettes that filled his body like water, everything he's done that he wishes he could take back.
Sometimes he wishes he could live alone in the woods. Live wild and solitary, growing tall as the trees, alone as his cabin. Where his body never aches, never weighs him down. Where he never argues with his wife, yells at his son, sees his daughter cry. He could stay there forever, he thinks.
But he can't, because he needs them. He needs them to make him laugh and smile and hold and love. He doesn't know it, but they need him, too.
His son needs him to show him how to be a man. His daughter needs him to make things better. His wife needs him to make things right. And someday, he will. He needs to, because it's the only way he'll feel like it all matters.
It matters.
He's getting old, like a car that's gone too many miles and is just running low on fuel. Running on empty. Another twenty miles more, he thinks to himself. More pit stops, more landmarks, more breakdowns. He smiles wryly to himself. It's not the destination, it's the journey.
Another twenty miles more.
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Dromomania
Every day I turn the key in the lock
Hoping to find you
tucked into the white folds
of an envelope,
of the bath towel I left on the sofa this morning.
But you and I, we haven't the breadth for that sort of thing.
I wish I could send you something of spring,
some distended meteor green with hope.
I'm watching the last of the oak leaves cling
stubborn
and I think
spring may not be coming this year.
There is no birdsong, there is
the furious sleeping of toads in the mud.
I came on the bench
where I slept in the warmth of your memory
this time last year.
Now the thought seems less mine and maybe it was
me you'd dreamt beside,
m
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Fisher
I reached into the rivers of time
and found you waiting
with your lips curled into shining lures,
everglade eyes and fish hook fingertips
throw in the line and reel me back,
back,
back again
pull out the tape and measure your catch--
it's your greatest yet
but I can't breathe.
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Nocte
Hiding from the beast,
From tree to tree,
Running in the dark,
I tell myself such things,
Slow- so it won't find you,
Breath.
These fires have scorched far and wide,
Leaving the scent of my former cinders to linger in my head,
Like some bad bender,
Warped memories encircling grey,
The ground is made of shattered glass,
Broken dreams.
No lilies remain,
To any kingdom I run,
In mirrors of liquid glass,
Surrealist battles are won,
And like fear,
The spider crawled from my mouth.
They are sedating everything,
Brush pixilated,
Focus changing,
Leaving me to run in the dark,
Caught in the eye of the storm,
Hiding in the calm.
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This will be edited, but I just wanted to write this here.
This is about the man I loved first, now, and beyond forever: my dad.
This is about the man I loved first, now, and beyond forever: my dad.
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Aw man, you're going to make me fav your whole gallery, aren't you.
Have you shown this to him?
Have you shown this to him?